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TO FORGIVE

A Heart That Forgives – Kevin Levar

I want a heart that forgives
A heart full of love
One with compassion just like Yours above
One that overcomes evil with goodness and love
Like it never happened, never holding a grudge
I want a heart that forgives that lives and let’s live
One that keeps loving over and over again
One that men can’t offend
Because Your Word is within
One that loves without price, like You Lord Jesus Christ
I want a heart that loves everybody….even my enemies
I want to love like You, be like You, just like You did
I want a heart that forgives,

I want a heart that forgives!
When the ones that are closest, that I’ve known the longest, hurt me the most;
I still wanna love them just like You love me
Even though I’m hurting
I want a heart that forgives
When the pain is so deep, it’s so hard to speak, about it to anyone
Just like Your Son, I give up my right to hold it against them with hatred inside
I want a heart that loves everybody….even my enemies
I wanna love like You, be like You, just like You did
Wanna walk like You, talk like You, just like You did,
Wanna be like You, live like You, just like You did

‘Cause the heart that forgives is the heart that will live
Totally free from the pain of the past
And the heart that let’s go is the heart that will know so much freedom

Lord I wanna let it go
God I need to let it go
Lord its been holding me back
And I don’t want it, I don’t want it, I don’t
I don’t want it no more
I don’t know exactly what to do to get rid of it, but ah…
Here I am Lord Jesus, here I am oh, here I am Lord Jesus…ooh
Lord, I need You, I need You, I know this is me that You’re talking to
This is me, this is me, this is me, Lord, this is me
Lord, I let it go, every person, every person that’s ever hurt me
God I let it go
Every single hurt
God I let it go
Every single pain
God I let it go, I let it go, I let it go
Lord, You can have it, Lord You can have it,
Lord, You can have it, Lord You can have it,
You can have it now, You can have it now,
‘Cause I don’t want it no……more

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Dear God,

Please take all my despair, sadness and pain. When you forgive all my sins, and as you child, I would learn to forgive all those things that my beloved one to do. I know love can not be forced, it will come accidentally, but it will stay with conscious and effort. If one person does not do it, just accept and let it go. I will find the one who will fight for it. It is hard but I must face it. Everything is changed and I do not want to regret it. I thankful for the lesson, Lord. Please take me to a new journey. I am ready to do it.

Cheers, Mon x

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A Story of Believing

There is a quote that reflected my journey to be a volunteer in 2012 from Etselec, “Always believe that something wonderful is about to happen.” Do you ever feel such a thing or in that experience? The only thing that you need to do just to believe although it seems impossible. I embraced every step of the process one month before my flight date, 30 August 2012. I was waiting desperately for a visa which is the most important document to enter my new journey.

I resigned firmly from my first company in management consulting industry as Project Monitoring at the end of July 2012. I thought confidently my sponsorship letter came around this time as I heard from former volunteers’ experience. I was sorrowful that I did not go back to my hometown, Padang as planned due to I still did not get a letter until the fourth week of July. Instead of overthinking on this, I went to other countries – Vietnam and Cambodia as a backpacker, which I already bought the cheap flight a year ago.

All my worries turned on into happiness when I checked my email in the last two days before I backed home. I was a grateful person, and I was waiting the time could spin directly until my flight date to Jakarta. After I had submitted the form, I realized that the average time of processing visa was very tight with my flight date. There were two important public holidays in August 2012 namely Independence Day and ‘Eid Mubarak. My mind was wandered and scattered, “Is it enough?”

There was nothing happened on one week before my flight’s date. I managed all my troubled heart with writing a post on my blog entitled Believe. I listened to my mother’s advice that I should not force my intention if it was not meant to be. I spent a lot of my money to live as unemployed for a month. I cried every day, but I knew it did not change the situation. One thing that I said silently to myself and made my heart was peaceful, “God, please give me a big heart to accept the thing that it did not happen as I thought. And send me a wise heart to understand everything.”

In the morning of the day of my flight, I was just praying to give me strength. All my stuff already sent to the home and I already said to room’s owner that that day was my last day. If I did not get the visa, there was one thing for sure – bought the ticket to Padang. I heard a sound of an incoming message at 11 am, and I read a text message from my former boss for asking for my visa. Two seconds after that, I just got a message from the UK Visa Office. My heart was singing to please God. I called my mother, and I said, “I will go, Mom.”

I went to the visa office directly with a thankful heart. When I backed into my room that I was ever living in six and half years, I took contentedly my big luggage and backpack bag. I could not say anything to my friend because it was just suddenly happened, my flight time was 5.30pm. It was like a dream; I arrived in time for check-in at the airport in Jakarta to go long way journey to Manchester. From this incredible experience, I learned one thing that I need to believe in beautiful things would happen in my life and it will do the same thing with your life too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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HIS TIME

God’s time is never late or too quick. It is always in time according to His plan. As a human, I learn to believe in His plan and not my plan. It takes the time to bring me in this understanding.

We have a lot of plans, dreams, and hopes in our life. To be an efficient person, we also have a timeline for that. However, in reality, it does not always happen as we planned. Do you just remember the event that comes up in your mind? What is your first response to the situation like that?

I have one of the biggest dreams in my life. It is never easy to pursue it. I need to take a long time to continue it, but I never give up because I believe there is a way to get there until it seems no way. I dreamed it in my mind in ten years ago. I just realised to make it a real in three years later. I was not directly to get into my dream, but it took me go around in somewhere else. Until the day came, I could say that in three years ago, I need to start it. It is not like other people; I did not arrive it as my schedule.

Was I stopped and depressed? For a moment, yes. Otherwise, He always is there for the people who I met. The people that helped me to try it again, again and again. From those experiences, I learned about being human in the following insights:

  1. Prayer is the best way to know and understand His plans
  2. Thank the person who always supports you and does not do that. You got two lessons: to know the real mate and to forgive the oppose one.
  3. Keep practising and do what you can do.

“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart, yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.” -Ecclesiastes 3:11

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Prayer

 

When my heart gives despairing about life, this prayer helps me to heal it. When my heart is wondering, this prayer encounters all the pain.

When my heart starts missing something, hope this prayer brings it to them.

When my heart is looking for affection, this prayer fulfills the missing part of it.

Prayers are like the bridge between him and me.

I know you are just close as I say the words which express all the hearts would like to be shouting but could not be expressed.

I know you are just there and always be there for me, although your heart is broken by my mistakes.

I know you always forgive and have the best plan for my life.

There is one thing that I never understand about my life, but I know your best plan designs for it.

My mind is smaller that could not be compared with your greatness Divine.

Please give me a peaceful heart to pass it through all things in front of me.

Him

18 Motivational Bible Verses

  1. And this patience is proof that we are strong. And this proof gives us hope. And this hope will never disappoint us. We know this because God has poured out his love to fill our hearts through the Holy Spirit he gave us. -Romans 5:4-5 (ERV)
  2. You might call many people your “friends”, but it is hard to find someone who can really be trusted. -Proverbs 20:6 (ERV)
  3. There is  a right time for everything, and everything on earth will happen at the right time. -Ecclesiastes 3:1 (ERV)
  4. Any of you who want to be my follower must stop thinking about yourself and what you want. You must be willing to carry the cross that is given to you for following me. -Mark 8:34b (ERV)
  5. But the Lord said, “My Grace is all you need. Only when you are weak can everything be done completely by my power. ” -2Cor 12:9a (ERV)
  6. In all the work you are given, do the best you can. Work as though you are working for the Lord, not any earthly master. -Collosians 3:23 (ERV)
  7. No one has ever seen, no one has ever heard, no one has ever imagined what God has prepared for those who love him. -1 Cor 2:9 (ERV)
  8. I forget what is in the past and try as hard as I can to reach the goal before me. I keep running hard toward the finish line to get the prize that is mine because God has called me through Christ Jesus to life up there in heaven. -Philippians 3:13b-14 (ERV)
  9. A song for going up to the Temple. I look up to the hills, but where will my help really come from? My help will come from the Lord, the Creator of heaven and earth. -Psalms 121:1-2 (ERV)
  10. The Lord’s words are true and pure, like silver purified by fire, like silver melted seven times to make it perfectly pure. -Psalms 12:7 (ERV)
  11. Then Jesus said to her, “Remember what I told you? I said that if you believed, you would see God’s divine greatness.” -John 11:40 (ERV)
  12. Faith is what makes real the things we hope for. It is proof of what we cannot see. -Hebrews 11:1 (ERV)
  13. We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him. These are the people God chose, because that was his plan. -Romans 8:28 (ERV)
  14. Anyone who live the way God wants can pray, and great things will happen. –James 5:16b (ERV)
  15. Remember what I told you? I said that if you believed, you would see God’s divine greatness. –John 11:40 (ERV)
  16. But in all these troubles we have complete victory through God, who has shown his love for us. –Romans 8:37 (ERV)
  17. “All things are allowed”, you say. But not all things are good. -1 Corinthians 10:23a (ERV)
  18. I know what you do. I have put before an open door that no one can close. I know you are weak, but you have followed my teaching. You were not afraid to speak my name. -Revelation 3:8 (ERV)

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Dia

Dia membuatku percaya..

Bahwa aku harus mengejar mimpiku..

Dia membuatku belajar..

Bahwa apa yang ku tabur, itu yang ku tuai..

Dia membuatku tertawa..

Dengan segala senda guraunya..

Dia membuatku berpikir..

Untuk setiap kata yang telah terucap..

Dia membuatku mengenal..

Bahwa perbuatan lebih penting dari kata..

Dan dia juga membuatku menangis..

Bahwa dalam hidup, kadang harus merelakan..

Hanya doa yang bisa kuberikan..

Karena ku tahu, ini adalah impian terbesar dalam hidupnya..

Hari-hari ini pun akan kulalui bahwa kadang cerita pun ada akhirnya..

Yang harus dibiarkan pergi dengan angin dan waktu..

Buku ini akan kubuka dengan lembar yang baru..

Cerita tentang dia selalu ada tersimpan di tempat yang manis..

Tapi sang penulis pun sadar bahwa dia hidup di dunia nyata dan bukan di alam mimpi..

Cerita yang ditulis adalah kehidupan dan bukan sebuah fiksi..

Kadang tidak semua cerita berakhir dengan sesuatu yang manis..

Tapi ini adalah sebuah cerita pencarian..

Tentang sebuah harapan dimana tidak tertuju pada Dia..

Tetapi DIA yang selalu memberikan kelegaan..

 

“Tetapi carilah dulu Kerajaan Allah dan kebenarannya, maka semuanya itu akan ditambahkan kepadamu.” Matius 6:33

 

 

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Ucap Syukur

Ketika aku ingin menyerah..

Engkau berkata, “Bertahanlah nak..”

Ketika aku ingin keluar..

Engkau berkata, “Sedikit lagi nak..”

Ketika aku bilang tidak sanggup..

Engkau berkata, “Bukankah kau mau untuk ku jadikan baru..Bersabarlah..”

 

Kemarin ketika aku menghadiri misa, bacaan keduanya berkata..”Kesengsaraan menghasilkan tahan uji, dan tahan uji menghasilkan pengharapan..”

Seakan semuanya terasa mustahil, tapi aku percaya.. Engkau tidak pernah terlambat dan tidak terlalu cepat. Tapi pas pada waktuMu.

Ku ucapkan syukur atas segala yang ada.

Dengan bantuan Roh Kudus, ku percaya.

Bahwa ini adalah bagian dari jalanMu.

Seperti yang diajarkan Bunda, “Terjadilah padaku menurut kehendakMu”